Ego-Point Koster

“I am so done dealing with your problems”
This words in my head repeated again and again
Oh, I need to calm these thoughts down
Or they break me down This is some kind of nightmare.
I wanna hurt your heart with shortsighted words.
Deep resentment makes me say all it to you!
I do not want to lose a friend, but then the gloom will never end! And here I stand in front of you and only few things i want to do:
(one) To leave this place:
(two) To not see your face:
(three) To crack my soul (last) and lose it all. A cold wind blows on us, but will it blows my problems away?
Now asking myself, I understand, that nothing will change until I change myself Again and again I accept my own lie
«It’s not my fault and not my trouble. She made this mess, and now she doubles.
Not me! Not me! Not me!»
This is who I am, it eats me alive
Should I fight with my pride and never lose my head again
Or take it as a given and in this question put the point? (I am deaf to my soul
And thus I’m losing control) “К своей ты глух к душе”
И в ответ лишь “туше”
“Туше!” Man with his world lives with others.
He creates it out of his desires.
And many don’t like the fact that he planted his daffodils on the highest sunshine hills
Should he changes?
Should he brakes?
Should he dig it out
Or fight with the crowd? Again and again I accept my own lie
«It’s not my fault and not my trouble. She made this mess, and now she doubles.
Not me! Not me! Not me!»
This is who I am, it eat me alive
Should I fight with my pride and never lose my head again
Or take it as a given and in this question put the point?